Title: " What's wrong for todaY "
Today is kindda little odd, dont know, i just feel im drifted away slowly from my colleagues, i dnt really know the exact reason, perhaps because im getting more withdrawn that when go for lunch i became more "focus" in eating anyway i dnt talk when i eat, and that i slowly dont konw how to socialise and even on the sunday when went ECP, i left earlier to go Sentosa with poly frens, after tat i felt like isolated. But i think it should be me having problems mingling with others. I dont think i can sustain even a long term frenship... Hmm...

Quarrelled with my indian frens of few years, but tat i dnt think its my fault, because i endured his "pussy-ness" and shitty ways of doing things. Whatever to him though, i seldom will scold a fren and tat day it jsut occur to me, i need to vent it out!!

Back to my office r/s, i think maybe everyone thought im very free, actually not tat im very free, im basically doing my scope and 1 month project i already done what i should be doing in a way, now im trying to create the SOP for my empowerment & specimen signature which not require of me but i just do wan to feel that im adding value to what im doing now. Actualyl also dont know felt so low about things lately, not sure is it that or other things but end of day i think i know why now. ...

As for work, im going to be administrator of another paymnet system, though job scope is not clearly defined yet but im sure its not going to be tat simple too. SO WHO EVER my colleagues are out there, im NOT as free as u see im, jsut tat i had chiong all my things first, and leave the ending relaxing, is like (xian tian hou ku) i dnt blame anyone for not understanding me enough BUT at least be more open minded about everything, not only see the surface, certainly im not wasting company resources like some others did, when i OT, i do OT, and my small little project given 1 mth was complete (my part) with 22nd of the month, and the reminding is about maintaining the specimens upon receiving. Thats y now im doing abit by abit, i dont facebook till tat 1 person everyday face book and tat person once mention during dinner that "good tat i dnt have to do closing" please la u also temp staff, not doing closing only tat day u need, so whats the complain about? Me only 1st mth (though seems very long leow) so wat closing u want the company to assign to me? im learning abit by abit.

But i guess im not tat good in socialising and tat i blame myself, im trying, :) i able to do abit better initially but i felt the r/s sour abit, i think is because im 2 soft, and tat soft till i dnt have a character of my own, too much cust. svc lvl. Now i think i need to re adjust thnigs again in life ba.