What am i doing? I have no idea, i always put others first but neglected myself. Or am i simply not who i am anymore?

Whatever it is, i simply leaving to nature forces, perhaps its god or fated...

I DONT KNOW I DONT KNOW ANYTHING, I SIMPLY HATE ARGUEMENTS!!

Im Losing myself and my identify!!

Sigh!!!

No 1 can help me as usual...

Watch this movie before? Lol, i watched that like 2 months ago (i think) its really not a bad movie, as usual even thai movies are better than Sg-made. Well, i guess sg-made movies are pretty much localize.

Watch Hello Ghost yesterday, initially was like couldnt link up the missing parts but subsequently the ending has a twist, not sure about other viewers, such as whether they were expecting this ending or only im not expecting this ending. Nonetheless, like watching the korean movie - "yea man nu si jie" actress from sassy girl and another actor who died while trying to save her. Both are really touching, dontremember whether was anyone crying watching that yea man nu si jie 7 yrs ago but for yesterday the movie moved alot, the twist was linking all the parts that were unclear to me together into a story line, wonderful. Of cse, i cried... Damn!! But im sure its ok for guy to drop tears as well.

So Hello stranger on this blog, how come you to this blog? lol anyway im always chilled, as i had learnt over the years.

Well, lets just follow the flow that comes along. Lets hope im able to learn fast and excel in this area before moving out of the inventory role.

Lets revised my new 1 year objectives:
- Master Inventory Management & scope
- raise to 1.5 to reach 20 in 12 mths

Yeah, here i am, Yes u r right, im feeling those uncertainties & negativities.

Well, yesterday i was intending and highly motivated to pursue higher education, but now it seems not possible for now.

Now frankly, im at the lost situation.

After days, weeks & months of job hunting for a career switch & dilemma of a decision to accept a massive pay cut of about 1.5K also to a smaller firm.

Almost decide to further my education in Master of Accounting in Curtin and stick to my role to learn more from Adeline my AFM.

I realised i was just uncomfortable with getting stagnant in my work area and non-value adding daily routines.

Perhaps im been too critical. I be pursuing part time studies soon if everything goes well.

I always wanted to ask and admit, perhaps i really dont know what i want, that is in regards to my career.

Weighting monetary against possible career that i like?

Frankly, i'm stucked inbetween. My mistakes were due to shortsightness in my "strategy" and insufficient understanding of myself, in addition underestimate employment market.

Consequence of all the above, im considered fortunate to still have a job. However, its a matter of time everything come shuttering down soon.

Structural change in few months to a Fin Mgr that have an asian perspective without the flexibility of my current polish boss, this meant that every actions might need justifications.

On top of these, im not a finance person, underestimated that doing a switch in scope is as good as treating myself as a "Fresh" graduate. Drawbacks are "massive" paycut.

So what are the solutions? Im not ready to have a pay cut given my lifestyle for the last 2 years working. If im alone, i might be able to accept to <3 which already consider as 40% cut from current status.

It seems to only switch within Co and hope pay cut wouldnt happen or remains in this industry, and upgrade skill sets upon decision.

What's "your" views?